hehe. skool was fine.
oh gosh, i am very easy to get angry right now.
i dunnoe why, and i seriously can't stand noise now. =.-
so dun be a irritating person and irritate me.
and dun comment stupid thing lik u did on apr.
specially the one on the <<< haha ="DDDDD
ohh, i am damn free, so if gt pic let me edit pic! =D
HELLO! =DD
skool todae was not so gd.
i went home at 3rd period, actually,
stomach not really that pain but don't feel lik staying so went home =D
oh gosh i'm bored.
i wan to study, but lazy.
i wan to draw art, but lazy.
so dead.
hehe.
life is so complicated and i finally realize who really care.
i noe ppl love following the flow, so it's okay.
i'm not going to do anything, becoz i can't anyway.
but, don't act lik u care if u don't
thx hee jin and shuey to be there always.
thx germaine for asking .
thx khai, jit, hannah, hakkim, sharen, jordan, sili, colleen for caring.
thx matthew and chirstina for asking me to take care
oh, and thx mrs low for being a great and caring teacher =D
i don't blame u guys if one day, u guys ignore me.
but thx u guys for everything.
ppl that i thought will be there for me is actually the one who don't seem to care at all,
while ppl that i nv thought that they will be caring and stuff is actually the one who be there for me.
i nv once said wat happened isn't my fault.
okay, i shall reply the letter that rina and li ping wrote.
first, i don't deny that li ping i gt tok abt u.
but, not the part that u are tinking that i am and i didn't show u a fuck face.
if i really did, i show to the rest too.
den on wed, i didn't attitude u first.
u the one who dun understand wat i'm / mr lee was saying, den u attitude me, before i attitude u.
and it make until is all my fault.
u said u not my dog, i didn't even treat u this way, when did i treat u lik a dog?
u attitude me can, but i attitude u, u said that i'm treating u lik a dog?
and rina chua, don't said until trying to knock some sense into my mind.
becoz whenever there thing happened, it is impossible to be just one person fault.
u r not right neither.
u dare to say u nv ps me?
yes i'm not happy, u said u tok to me nicely and i show face, act mute?
hello, i show the attitude that i show to everyone.
u can ask the rest too, don't make until i'm just showing both of u attitude.
on thu art lesson i nv tok to u?
i did, is u r the one who don't really wan to tok to me.
u asked me am i angry or not, i said no.
u dun believe and tink that i am, so wat do u wan me to do?
i didn't tok to u, i didn't tok to the rest.
others tok to me, i den tok to them.
but did u tok to me lik the way they did?
i didn't blame u guys, yet u guys blame me.
when i tok, u guys said i irritating, when i don't u guys said i attitude.
so no matter wat happen is just my fault?
so everyone is right.
u guys nv owe me anything, i don't owe u guys anything too.
u guys can contiune dislike me and stuff, said i attitude or wat so ever.
or even ask everyone don't be friend with me, or even gossip abt me behind,
den be it. becoz there is nothing i can do.
neither do i wish thing to be lik this
and this is how i feel for this 3 and more years.
instead of saying that i'm your friend, i feel more lik a replacement for everything and everyone.
i didn't said it out long ago, becoz i noe thing lik this will happen, and i noe no one will side me.
but now i realize how dumb i am to think so,
i maybe not anyone or anything but at least i am who i am.
sorry for what happened, sorry for everything.
i tink u guys dun ever wan to tok to me, i tink,
but is okay now.
xlaura.
just like a white paper, it tear easily,
but at least it will not change colour.
Saturday, September 26, 2009 @ 10:39 PM
don't call/sms me.
.
don't ans when i call and
.
pls don't call back for the time being.
.
HANDPHONE SOT!
xlaura.
again and again,
feel so right.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 10:41 PM
HAPPY BDAE SERA!
school today was not so good i guess.
i'm bored to death, sitting all alone.
no one bother to entertain me or tok to me, all they do is making those silly comments. =.-
mock exam was not so gd neither.
before mock exam, wanted to go find ms khai, asking her how to do SB.
but heard the noise from the classroom, confirm a lot of ppl inside, so decided to go mock exam straight.
still tinking whether shld go or not.
maybe some ppl will say, den dun go lor but if really wan to say this, oh shut up.
or maybe some ppl don't wish me to go, den be it.
neither do i wan to go there see ppl having fun and i wan to go or not, seriously, gt nothing to do with anyone.
when i said some ppl, i don't mean anyone, it's just a maybe.
i hate it so much when ppl call me when they need me.
i hate it so much that soon after that, they seem to push me away.
i hate it so much of feeling so left out but still trying to fit in.
who will side me no matter i'm wrong or right?
who will help me when i really in need?
who will listen to my nonsense, and cheer me up when i need to?
i tink whether i'm sad or not, no one even noe. maybe ppl lik me just can't fit in.
xlaura.
they alway said this, nothing is impossible.
they know that miracle don't always happen, yet they alway believe.
so do you?
Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 4:38 PM
HELLO! =DD
okay, super duper bored.
i am supposed to study during sat and sun, but once again, i didn't
either my friends is not free or the time is quite late.
OHH! TV show sux on sun!
yes yes yes, i rather doing nth den studying,
but but but i just can't take my eyes off the laptop and TV!
i think maybe one day my hse on fire, i still using com or watching tv! maybe even slping lik a pig!
omg, this is my lifestyle,
wake up, use com, watch tv, eat, slp, use com, watch tv, eat, watch tv, slp.
cannot make it.
as for todae, once again, suppose to go study, but none of my friends replying me.
damn it. haiz, i guess i shld stop asking ppl go study with me.
no point asking again and again den in the end, =.- stay at home using com! HAHA
maybe i shld start studying at home, beside that if they really wan go study,
they will call de la. aiyo.
stay at home better, hehe okay tv, com, BED! =D
okay, trying to study chem right now.
ohhh, 1 week have pass, 2 more weeks to go.
anw, at least i now noe that ionic compound is high melting and boiling point,
conduct electricity when molten or dissolved in water and is souble in water!
insouble in organic solvents, eg, petrol and alcohol. =DD
covalent compound is totally another way round. hehe. lazy to type,
beside that, i tink none of u wan to noe this =.-
hehe. some ppl will say this, U NOW THEN NOE ARHH. HAHAH!
okay okay, this shows that, u really must start studying early =D
tada!
ohh, i dunnoe wat to draw for art! DAMN IT D=
xlaura.
feeling,
falling,
fearing.
Saturday, September 19, 2009 @ 6:00 PM



HELLO! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
skool on fri was actually quite fun!
as in after skool and stuff.
went to tp to eat den came back to skool for remedial.
slacked at ms khai's homeroom before remedial started.
i enjoyed the remedial hehe and mrs low is damn super duper funny. i love her =D
after that, waiting for the rain to stop den saw J.J alone.
so joined him with firdus.
mr lee tok to us a while den J.J and i went to mrs low's homeroom.
wanted to stay for a while only but in the end went home at 6.
drew some art HAHA and showed mrs low my cute baby's photo! =DD
my art cannot make it. i don't know what to draw. damn stress.
tok to her with J.J a while.
TODAY
wanted to go study... W-A-N-T-E-D but didn't
oh gosh! time is seriously running out, but i didn't study at all =.-
okay la. study tmr? anw,
HAPPY HARI RAYA! =DDDDDDDD
xlaura.
Pretending I don't care at all.
I think i'm just going crazy.
Thursday, September 17, 2009 @ 10:23 PM
HELLO! =DD
skool today is tiring! okay, lesson is boring. omg!
ohh i choose my art topic le! =DD reflections! but i gt a problems of drawing ppl.
mm... stayed for mock exam.
my head was damn pain just now. lack of slp i guess.
hehe. slp a bit at comb human lesson. =D
ohhh yes, mock exam. omg!
the paper is 2 hours! can u believe it?!?! we stuck at there for 2 bloody hours.
mock ended at 4.55. went down to c the netballers train a bit and off i go. =DD
okay la. i dun noe whether i wan to go for chem/phys remedial or not.
i onli wan to go for chem leh, but once u go for chem, u need to go for phys =.-
hehe. looking forward to singapore flyer! YAY!
ohh, i tink dun call ms khai go better la. HAHA
have no chance to tell her and dun really tink she wan to go leh is lik onli the girls go ma.
nth much la. tata. =DD
xlaura.Maybe, just maybe ...i fear.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 3:12 PM
HELLO! =DD
okay, i gt so much to blog! HAHA.
I AM SUPPOSE TO HAVE A LONG POST TODAY! =D
all of u shall listen to my "long life story"(complaining !)
on mon, ms khai didn't come skool and gt this relief teacher totally pissed me off.
he tok non-stop while all the ppl is busying writing a SA!
he scolded us stupid! and said, if we are smart, we will not be in this class, we will be in EXPRESS
arghhh! nonsense.
NEXT! HEHE HAHA HOHO.
skool was actually alright this few days, i love my friends! =D they r nice ppl.
ohhh, the kuku li ping and si li siao! they tink rina and me 24 hours gossip abt ms khai. =.-
ohhhhhhhh! we, girls are planning where to go after n level!
yes yes, SINGAPORE FLYER! we wanted to call ms khai... HAHA. but... no chance to and... =.-
actually, rina and i wanted to tok to ms khai and today is a great chance/time.
we even tink of wat to say to her!
we stayed back, and ms khai is in the room.
BUT! the boys is ard her! so we can't drag her out and say we wan to tok to u right.
so... forget it again! HAHA.
and i just realize, for SOMEONE information, is not the girls dun wan tok to her.
is whenever we wanted to, the boys is ard her! and yet U "guys" blame us and said is our fault?
is U "guys" didn't give us a chance to be with her alone!
OMG! okay, i done with blogging/complaining
ohhh... seriously, i dun hate ms khai! i really dun! =DD i lik her.
but just that someone make me feel that she is so bias all those stuff and make me dislike her.
okay, maybe not totally that someone fault, but i just dun lik it kays!
xlaura.attention, i guess that's wat i really want,not hers. his or them.
Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 1:33 PM
my 16 dec bdae's present from the bdae girl! =D

CANDI! OLIVIA! =DD


JOCELYN! OLIVIA! =DD

ALVIN! ANDY! =DD my cousins handsome arhh?

AUNT! AND CHERYL! =DD pretty leh! =D



SI HUI! JOCELYN! CANDI! =DD




HELLLLLOOOOOOOO =DD
okay, i wanted to blog long ago, but the stupid olivia didn't send me the pic.
thu! i didn't go school.
Mr lee called, regret answering! now he wan a mc, but i don't care! =DD
hehe haha hoho.
went PS to watch movie!
i met candi and jocelyn first to eat breakfast and buy thing for olie.
saw my aunt and my 2 cousins =.-
olie came, watched G-force! =D
went ion after that, to meet si hui.
and guess wat? i saw my other aunt and my 3 cousins!
HAHA. yes yes, omg ion is big, big big big!
after that home sweet home!
fri, stayed at home whole day.
todae, going to stay at home whole day again D=
i wan to go science centre! =DD
xlaura.
if that's a dream, wake me up.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 9:47 PM
HELLO! part 1 N level had over!
HEHE HAHA HOHO! =DD
s.s = hard.
CHP 4 didn't come out! so many were disappointed, i am one of them.
SBQ harder! some bloody lame duck thing =.-
passing, i guess can but i'm scare!
becoz i do my SA first, so i leave a few pages blank!
den, do my SBQ... so i gt one page blank in between. DD=
i'm scare the marker did not turn until that page! den die!
english was alright?
but still, i just wan a pass, i onli wan to clear my english!
PLS LET ME PASS ENGLISH AND PLS LET THE MARKER TURN UNTIL THAT PAGE! D=
ohhh, tmr gt this dumb math mock exam thing, but i'm not going.
hehe. going out with friends tmr! tata
tmr is the OLD LADY olivia lee bdae! =DD
looking at the keyboard, u and i are alway together.
cool right? hehe haha hoho! =DD
xlaura.
dreaming,
same old stuff everynight.
this is killing me.
Monday, September 7, 2009 @ 9:27 PM
HELLO! =DD
skool todae was funny! oh ya, is my n level chinese exam!
papers is okay, but just that i dunnoe how to do!
i tink i am siao =.- they giv this bar code thing, HAHA! suppose to paste at ans booklet, i paste at ques booklet. den paste here and there, decided to ask the teachers where to put!
i keep smiling to myself during exam! HAHA SIAO!
den hor, i looked at the ques (MCQ), all the answers is lik staring at me and sae,
HEY PICK ME PICK ME! =.-
after exam, went to eat with G,LM,LP,S,C.
went tp after that to "study" with O,M,C,LM.
LOL! i took colleen sa paper and start marking! HAHA.
NOW I NOE WHY DO TEACHERS LOVE TO MARK PAPER! IS FUN! =DD
oie oie oie, i'm gd okay! hehe.
ohhh went home after this, and ... =.-
okay, i'm suppose to study!
friends ard me keep telling me to study even my jiejie also sae so! HAHA. GONE CASE!
esp bervin! HAHA. i went to play this ball thing on FACEBOOK! and he scolded me!
seriously, this n level thing, dun seem lik n level!
ohhh... actually, i dun really hate ms khai la! HAHA.
is just someone make me to dislike her alot.
if this continue, i tink i will hate her =.-
tata.
xlaura.hey, hey, hey!lalalalala! =DD
Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 6:42 PM
HELLO! =DD
I'M HERE AGAIN!
as u c, i changed my url. ya... so i didn't tell anyone! HAHA.
so ya, i'm blogging to let myself c, hehe. but of course,
when ppl ask me, i will giv them!
i'm changing back soon, or maybe i stick with this web, c my mood. =DD
ohh! finally i started to study! =DD yay!
all the best dear friends,
we will go sec 5 together.
we will make history,
we will prove others wrong!
hehe. okay la.
chinese and english to read/practice, 3 chp of s.s to study and of course sbq to practice!
tata.
xlaura.stop thinking,stop looking,stop dreaming,stop it.
Saturday, September 5, 2009 @ 2:46 PM
first paper is on mon, and yet, ...
i dunnoe wat to do, i dun feel lik doing anything.
i still in a oh-la-la mood.
i dunnoe wat i done wrong this time again, life is just so complicated.
starting of the year, there is still 9 months left!
half a years is gone, it's okay, i still gt 3 months left.
now, prelim 2 is over, back in lesson and onli left just 3 days.
after the 3 papers, i noe i'm going to tell myself this again, hey, i still gt 1 more month left for my other papers.
i'm working hard, really working hard, using my mouth to sae.
NO JOKE! i wan to go sec 5! i wan to pass english! i wan to pass chinese and science! i wan my math, human and art score well!
i don't think we can go sec 5 together
i know we will go sec 5 together.
xlaura.tearing into 2, stop it, get lost.no much time left...
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 5:45 PM
HELLO! =DD
skool todae was tiring tiring tiring!
exam is less den 5 days time!
and guess wat? i still haven study my s.s!
going to study ltr! hehe.
math, phys, art, chinese, english!
after skool, went to ms khai's home room becoz of the kuku koon cheng and sock yin.
i'm trying my best not to sae anything abt ms khai thing in the blog.
but freak la! i hate my class boys. they r f**king irritating.
they keep blaming us for making her cried. WTF?
lik we PURPOSELY wan to make her cried.
we dun hate ms khai, but wat the boys done/sae to us, really going to make us hate ms khai soon.
of course u guys dun find her bias but not just the girls in the class sae so,
ex peircean, students from others class also sae that she perfer boys den girls.
one person sae maybe fake, but is lik so many ppl been saeing it la.
we noe that u guys lik her alot! we didn't brainwash u guys tell u guys to hate her!
dun lik mean dun lik, so stop putting all the blame in us and saeing us!
when u guys sae about other teachers badwords can.
but when we sae about her cannot. it's dun make sense!
yes la ya la! forever is our fault.
is our fault to tink that she is bias when she is sooooooo fair.
is our fault to tok in her class while the u boys also done so.
is our fault for saeing her badwords behind her back.
is our fault to make her cry.
everything is our fault! MY FAULT!
happy? not happy with me, hate me to be in class, den i am sorry.
there is really nothing i can do abt it.
i will keep my mouth shut and promise try not to tok to any of u guys.
i onli noe that is onli less den 1 more month, i am no longer in this class. so ya...
worst come to worst if there is class outing/class chalet, and u guys dun wan to c me,
den forget it. i will stay at home and will not attend any of those stuff.
one last thing, in the first place onli some girls dun really lik ms khai.
but after those thing had happened, more and more started to dislike her.
if u guys wan to make until whole girls in the class dislik her, den be it.
sae more and blame us more.
xlaura.some fact just can't be change.thinking, waiting, looking, forget it.